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I Am

I am a memory waiting to be forgotten. I am a photograph that has begun to fade. I am the stars that always vanish. I am the night that melts into day.
I am the wind, that one day, will settle. I am the sun, that one day, won't shine. I am the present without a tomorrow. I am a flaw and a waste of your time.
I am a product of my predecessors. A stain of blood upon their clean cheeks. I am a mute child with an answer To why the wind howls and why the lark sings.
I am the rain waiting to dry up. I am a dream about to shatter. I am a heart al

_{How can you tell others who you are,
if you don't yourself?
-paloma.}

simplicity.

simplicity overcomes that which is complex. ignorance does not substantiate bliss.
your eyes are not full of honesty.
behind the irises of this world, i see: blank faces and protruded minds; thoughts too radical to be shared, and voices too small to be heard.
your lips don't speak with the full intention of being heard.
among the brink lies both life and death, peace and destruction. on a see-saw, it titters and tatters tactfully playing with our hopes. strings that are invisible are attached to our puppet-like arms, and the puppeteer is yet to

_{"They say ignorance is bliss
But when my penmanship commits
To the depths of my soul
No cynicism can grip its Meaning deceiving qualities
Leave me screaming and sprawled out
I face questions of what it's all about
My head drawn out
But no, Being stupid gets you nowhere.
I'd rather be mildly arrogant."

-Morse Ft. Supa by I Hate this Place}

Kiss the Rain

Specks of blue spurt out above her, from the sea of roaming gray. Evening is coming ever closer, yet she hasn't seen the light of day. And she keeps dancing, so naivley, innocently wishing to find a way to part the clouds and see the sky's eternal blue but naive girl, when will you learn? The clouds won't part, the sun won't come. The winter is drawing nearer, the summer is dead and gone. And yet, you're dancing, ever freely, hoping to stop the falling tears. Stop for once, and kiss the rain, embracing all your fears. The clouds won't part, the sea will roar, and you'll still be hoping in vain.

_{"I often close my eyes, and then I see your smile.
You reach out for my hand;
and I'm woken from my dream.
Although your heart is mine,
it's hollow inside.
I never had your love, and I never will."

-Kiss the Rain by Hienie Dao}

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Goddess of FaytLittle feathers dancing, falling flames across the sky, Dreams so softly screaming; Angels seem to die. Here, I am standing, alone, averting your gaze. God is trying to wipe away the past; Erase. White flies across the ocean. Foam spurts; out clouds of blue. Ravens rise like phoenixes in hunger of finding you. Fayt is stringing her harp, and the melody of her voice, a curse. Every where you turn to, things get worse and worse. Look into the eyes of your love and bid them farewell. Soon, all this will be over. Soon you'll be in hell. No one ever bleeds; they just cry red tears. Goddess of Fayt
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guilty consciencesi'd say no to what we made if no was ever an option.
i'd hide all the leftovers and say "nothing was left"   then i'd throw away the evidence so she could never find out.
but the dishes are still dirty, no matter how hard i scrub them.
i'd tell her "i grew out of my clothes" to throw away those you have tainted.
detergent doesnt work on
this fabric you have stained.
but she doesnt know that. she doesnt know half as much as she should.
all that's left are guilty consciences. guilty consciences
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these eyes.glassy eyes; windows to a
heart refusing to see. mirrors to things no one will understand. doors to a soul that no one will mend. and mother to tears that no one will wipe.
blissful eyes; a touch to the world of real life magic. mischief brought to life, holding an air of innocence. happiness affected only by the tide of summer. creating dissonance from all that once
was peaceful.
wet eyes; rivers of the heart pleading for a new beginning. washing away sins that mark the past with bruises. always pointed down these eyes.
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puzzler.tonight, i decided to pluck my heartstrings and sing a song dedicated only to you.
simple melody, like the story of our love that once bloomed in the
dawn of winter.
since this began, i have noticed the sky has become clearer and the sun has shone brighter.
the year is almost to a close. and as we chase the butterflies off
into january, all i hope to see is your chocolate brown eyes.
dazzling muddy brown irises that bear the window to my heart.
to say that you've meant nothing to me would be a most undeser puzzler.
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logarithmtell me who you are. a number, among the hundreds,
hiding behind the dots and the digits of incoherent squabble.
tell me what you want. and let me go, if you can, now, because i no longer understand the code you have made our language.
statistics say that you don't matter, adding one hardly causes a difference. but you, with my heart, would raise the power to two. (and thats  difference enough)
But 'I' is an imaginary number, and so
i must be imaginary.
There is an infinite amount of possibilities,
and among logarithm
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RealistSense and Heart are not one thing; logic binds the other. To follow ones emotions, is to live in the shadow of ignorance. Life heeds not the voice of fools, and fools appeal only to those that are weak minded.
Realistically, each person would live this life in peace. Realistically, we would make 'love' only to reproduce, and wage war solely for survival. The weak would be killed, and the guilty condemned. Violence wouldn't mark the end of mankind, but the beginning. Realistically, we would live like animals in a world made for them.
Essentially, we life to find peace, and we Realist
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she belonged anyway.The high was much more than she had hoped for. It had clogged every one of her senses, and had numbed them to a state of euphoria. Every inch of her body felt as if it was floating away, far from all that she hated, and all that she loved. Below her, she could hear suave jazz music and the busy chatter of incandescent loiterers speaking in a tongue she didn’t understand, even though it could have been her own native language.
The colors blurred as her body gained heat. Someone was slapping her and yelling for her to wake up; but she could care less. She was comfortably numb, and happy at the nothingness she was feeling. Some she belonged anyway.
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_{my greatest inspirations:
love. sadness. bliss. innocence. hope. ghosts.}

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Nov 20, 2009 Ridiculous thoughts
Oct 31, 2009 Love the past
Oct 29, 2009 Let me grasp this concept.
Oct 25, 2009 Your Guardian Angel
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Oct 11, 2009 The Puzzler
Oct 7, 2009 So here we are, now.....
Oct 4, 2009 Butterflies and Hurricanes
Oct 3, 2009 Mother
Sep 30, 2009 Desperado.

Ridiculous thoughts

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 20, 2009, 8:08 PM

Mood: Pissed Off
Listening to: Ridiculous thoughts

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note me

Is there such a thing as 'sanity'?

Southern California championships tomorrow. Whoop dee fucking doo.

_.features.

Ridiculous Thoughts -The Cranberries

Twister, oh, does anyone see through you?
You're a twister, oh, an animal.
But you're so happy, now. I didn't go along with you,
So happy now, na na na na.

But you're gonna have to hold on. You're gonna have to hold on,
You're gonna have to hold on, hold on, hold on.

Or we're gonna have to move on, We're gonna have to move on,
Or we're gonna have to move on, move on, move on.

I feel alright and I cried so hard, The ridiculous thoughts, oh.
I feel alright, alright, alright, alright.

Twister, oh, I shouldn't have trusted in you.
Twister, oh, a na na na. It's not gonna happen, no.
You're not gonna make fun of me,
Happen now, na na na na.

But you're gonna have to hold on. You're gonna have to hold on,
You're gonna have to hold on, hold on, hold on.

Or we're gonna have to move on, We're gonna have to move on,
Or we're gonna have to move on, move on, move on.

I feel alright and I cried so hard, The ridiculous thoughts, oh.
I feel alright, alright, alright... Ah, I should have lied,
But I cried so hard, The ridiculous thoughts, ah.
I should have lied, have lied, have lied, have lied.
But you're gonna have to hold on.

You're gonna have to hold on, (X 7)
Well, you're gonna have to hold on. You're gonna have to hold on,
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold.
Well, you're gonna have to hold on,
You're gonna have to hold on,
to me....

_{Colorguard Competitions}

~~October 10th - Ontario~~ Sweepstakes! First place, all fields.

~~October 17th - Newport Harbor~~ First place, Colorguard. Placed second in our division
~~October 24th - Mayfair~~ Second place colorguard. Placed Third. :[
~~October 31st - Capistrano Valley~~First place, Colorguard Sweepstakes. we're going to Championships!
~~November 7th - Surf City Classic~~ Third place, Colorguard Sweepstakes
~~November 14th - Edison H.S.~~ Second Place, Colorguard Sweepstakes
November 21st - California State Championships, San Benardino

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_{Name: Paloma(:
Age: sixteen
Interests: poetry, reading and writing, singing, listening to music, watching the seasons change, and sunsets.
Sports: colorguard
Favorite Quote:
"_{H o l d y o u r h e a d
h i g h, h e a v y h e a r t .}"

My life is one that I plan to live fully.
I will live as long as I can to see myself one day be the hero.
Or in the end, fall and become the villain.}

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Current Residence: L.A. County
Interests: Fullmetal Alchemist, and Anime...and the Fullmetal Alchemist <3
Favourite movie: Moon Child
Favourite band or musician: Too much to name. Tops are: L'arc~En~Ciel, Evanescence, AC/DC,
Favourite genre of music: Rock Alternatve and yeah stuffz like that
Favourite artist: Ya mean the drawer/painting do0ds? Ayane and Kat.
Favourite poet or writer: Cassie Owens, Edgar Allen Poe, Emily Dickinson, among others.
Favourite photographer: ~Certain-Insanity, *werol, and more :D
Favourite style of art: I enjoy virtually anything. ^^
Operating System: My brain :) -if you're talking computers, It's a windows Vista.
MP3 player of choice: the one you listen to... xD
Shell of choice: a nutshell >:D
Wallpaper of choice: The one you put on the wall o.o
Skin of choice: I have tan skin so..... o.o
Favourite game: Oh god too much to count. xD I like Okami, Kingdom Hearts series, Final Fantasies X and VIII :)
Favourite gaming platform: PS2. Respect the king.
Favourite cartoon character: Edward Elric. >=3 MINE! Always will be him. Yay shrimps!!!
Personal Quote: I am your conscience.
Tools of the Trade: Mah blue brain xO heh heh, heartbreak, creativity, and a pen.

Email: deceptivefeelings@gmail.com
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wouldn't you know?
we are such mosaics of emotion, we let the sunlight in through
our wide eyes and let it run down the corridors of our minds. we are creations melded together from blue and yellow and red glass, and on the surface we show the world that not every shadow we cast swirls with color. on the surface, pictures of stained glass saviors wash their feet in broken waters.
wouldn't you know?
this world is teeming with beautiful broken people. this sky is cradling stars that have collapsed on themselves, a moon hid

the mosaic of emotion

by *Solaces

More than beautiful. I am awestruck, so it will take a while for me to say what I want to say. Or will try to say. I just confused myse...

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I never meant to say goodbye I never will again Is that promise enough That you'll keep holding on? Amen I've finally got a grasp on my own head That's swarming like a wasp Stinging everywhere, and no one cares Stop
Is that the embrace, of atonement? It's true, these times, they are golden They've all given up on me I'm begging on my knees Don't run away from me
I've seen it before Someone just walks away They come back someday But not long enough to show Change Rearange, the thoughts in my head Am I losing me?

Atonement

by *SharpGuard

Saying goodbye is a sin no one should commit; and the chance for redemption is so often neglected. The message you portray; so simple...

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*FireKitty44 Nov 13, 2009, 6:21:20 AM

Thanks for the fav!! *Gives cookie*

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Daisy, give yourself away...

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~MartinBleu Nov 12, 2009, 9:48:08 PM

Thank you for adding 'City' to your favourites.

~krishna76 Nov 12, 2009, 4:45:02 PM

thank you so much for the fave , there are some really good pomes in your gallery

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Its all I see Please take it Its holding me,.Its more than me, .its killing me.Please take it away.I run it follows I speak it swallows I love,it breaks me. Its under me, Please take it away.Its watching me, Please take it away–black light burns

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